rejecting perfection

"If I could wish for my life to be perfect,

it would be tempting but I would have to decline,

for life would not longer teach me anything."

Allyson Jones

Lucky for me,

I was blessed to be sent these two cherubs,

who have taught me more than I could ever have imagined.

They taught me that I could love more than one child at the same time,

at the same moment, right from birth and there was room enough in my heart to feel such a deep love.

They helped me learn a protective love, 

right from that first moment I held them,

together,

that shields them from stares, 

from questions and comments. 

They have helped me learn how to function on no sleep,

that I could dig deeper than I thought possible,

that I could be the type of mother they needed me to be,

not who I thought I should be.

These boys have made me cry,

from the pure delight of them,

for the sheer naughtiness of them and

for the great gift they have been to me.

My life could have been perfect in many ways with four children,

and I would have learnt many things....

but, with these boys

I have been able to learn so many skills that I did not want to learn....

and for that I am thankful.

p.s - this is the only photo I have where I think Sam and Eli look identical.
I don't think they are identical, I don't know!