Monday, January 30, 2012

a beautiful heartbreak


The journey of life is often never how we plan it to be. 
It can include a moment of a beautiful heartbreak.

Life is full of twists and turns, hills and valleys, seasons of abundance and times of famine, moments of laughter and moments of deep heartache. It can feel as if we are on a rollercoaster that never stops.

Often these times or seasons of heartache come at a great personal sacrifice or personal loss to us.

These moments cut right to our deepest fears. 
They touch our heart, mind and spirit and we feel that it is more than we can cope with. 

We are left exposed. We feel raw and open to the hurt and pain that fills our heart. 
We ache in a new way, a deep way.

We have all faced this at times and some of us carry it in our hearts daily. 
In our quiet heart is hidden deep sorrow that the eye cannot see.

Right now my heart is tender as I think about Lisa and her three cherubs
About the pain she is suffering.

I know right now she is feeling heartache or more heartbreak over the loss of her son and husband.
It is a shock and many of us are in disbelief of what she is having to deal with.

Even though it is a heartbreak, to me I believe it is a beautiful heartbreak.

If you have had the chance to stop by to visit Lisa and her blog you will know that the story and personal experiences she has shared with her son, Noah and husband, Aaron are beautiful. 

They are full of the great love she has for her son Noah and even though he fought hard and lost his battle, there was a beautiful heartbreak that occured. 

The words and pictures shared about her husband Aaron are filled with deep love, care and joy. Even though it was a shock to lose him, the love story and feelings they have for each other are beautiful to read.

I am sure Lisa had a plan all mapped out for her and her family. 
This plan would have involved happiness and peace.

Instead right now she is facing each day with sorrow and pain. We naturally hope that her days are  mingled with small moments of peace and happiness as she draws on memories and faces a new future. 

She is now taking a new journey and climbing a new mountain that I am sure she never pictured in her path.

As she climbs this mountain she will come to see a new view. 
This process will involve moments of sleepless nights, tears and sadness.

As Lisa reaches the top of this mountain I hope she finds a beautiful view. 

I hope that she can in her future look back on this journey and see that it has become a beautiful heartbreak as she has grown stronger in ways she never thought she could, that she is loved greater than she ever knew and that once again she has it confirmed to her over and over again that she has a loving Heavenly Father who is watching over her and blessing her. 

If you are able to, please consider donating to Lisa and her family.
You can read more about how to do this on the donations page HERE.

I love how Hilary Weeks describes it and every time I hear this song I am going to think of Lisa.



Friday, January 27, 2012

King Family Donations


I woke up this morning to discover that one of my blog friends, Lisa King (pictured above) had lost her husband, Aaron during the night. I was shocked and burst into tears immediately. You see, Lisa is one incredible woman and in the past several months has been through so much already that it was just heartbreaking to hear about.

In October late last year she lost her son, Noah. (You can read about Noah and his journey on her blog HERE.) After many years of battling with his health he passed away at 10 years of age. It was a great loss to the family. Over the past couple of months the family together has been trying to move on, to live without Noah and to adjust to the changes in family life and to heal their hearts. 

To now have the loss of her husband. I am speechless and at a real loss for words to even start to describe how she must feel. Lisa wrote a post about her sweet Aaron on her blog and here are Lisa's words: 

"I know that they say that you aren't given anymore than you can handle, but right now I think I'm at my limit. After losing Noah less than four months ago and now losing my best friend, soul mate and love of my life I'm so grateful for my three boys who I love so much, who give me strength to keep going and look ahead to the day when we will be together with Noah and Aaron again. All I can think of is them hugging and talking and running and even side stepping together. Oh how wonderful their reunion must've been. I love you Aaron and I wish you were here just for one more day, to let you know just how much."

After sharing her heartache on my facebook page several people have contacted me offering to donate to help the King family. As a blogger I have seen incredible love and kindness shown towards those who are in need and who are suffering great loss and heart ache. After pondering this I have decided to set up a separate bank account for the King Family and would appreciate any donation that you can contribute to them at this time.

I know the journey Lisa and her three boys have ahead of her is not going to be easy and that what we will be able to raise will be a small comfort to them, but I am hoping that it may ease the burden in some small way to bring some additional happiness to them in this time of heartache and trial.

What I would love to do is to help raise funds for them to get through the next month. To help pay for groceries and expenses to ease the burden Lisa will face of providing for her family as a single mum. Having only recently finished paying for Noah's funeral, I would love to help raise enough funds to pay for a headstone for Noah, (he currently does not have one) and to cover the cost of having to pay for her husband Aaron's funeral. These expenses will be a big burden on Lisa when she is dealing with the shock and loss of her wonderful family members.

I know that if we all can contribute we can make this possible. 
Even if you can contribute $5 it will make a big difference for Lisa and her family.

If you are able to contribute in any way possible the bank account details are:

Naomi Ellis
Suncorp Bank
BSB: 484799
Account Number: 204 067 630


If you would prefer to send something in the mail a PO Box has been set up to receive donations:

PO BOX 759 
 Launceston, TASMANIA, 7250 

Some people have requested using Paypal as an option.
I have tried setting up a donations tab but as I am not a registered charity I am unable to.

I have instead set up a fundraising page for donations that will pay directly into the bank account set up.
This way I can avoid paypal and the crazy fees.


You can donate HERE:

Thank you so much in advance for your kindness and generosity.

Wednesday, January 25, 2012

P & O Cruises Australia Pacific Dawn

Recently, Matt and I went on a P & O Cruise on the Pacific Dawn up the coast of Queensland. It was a wonderful experience and it was lovely to have some time together, just the two of us to relax and enjoy exploring the beautiful coast line we have here in Australia. We found P & O Cruises a lovely company to cruise with and the staff we very friendly and total fun to be around.
We boarded the crusie ship and was immediately taken aback by the huge size of it and the many levels and variety of rooms to relax and socialise in. Our room offered plenty of room for us to stay in and we settled ourselves in and went up to the top deck to join the launch party.
Up on the top deck for the launch party was loud music, dancing, performers and many excited passengers ready to have an awesome cruise. We joined in the festivities and could not wait to get started with our holiday. 
As the cruise ship took off it was amazing to see how close it came to the top of the Gateway Bridge here in Brisbane. 
Just fits under!!
Everyone on board turned their heads upwards to watch the boat pass underneath. Totally cool to see and watch and it reminds you just how high the Pacific Dawn really is.
The boat has plenty of room for walking and who would not love the view. So gorgeous and I loved the days we were able to only see the sea every where we turned. I love the brilliant blue of the sea and the clouds. Oh! How I loved the clouds.
The top deck of the cruise ship has two pools, a stage, a bar and two spa's with many chairs for relaxing on. On one end of the top deck there is a buffet restaurant and on the other end is a massive entertainment area, like a nightclub for dancing and listening to bands and music in. One frustrating part of the cruise for many of us was that the pools seem to spend a lot of time closed. I have no idea why but some passengers were getting very upset about it and it was nice when they were open.
I could not get enough of the view. I totally adored it. I was happy to sit on the back of the cruise ship watching the line of water trailing behind us, every single day. A couple of other passengers shared the same love with me of course! Lucky there were three levels you could do this on the back of the cruise ship.
Actually, I may have spent a fair bit of my time on the cruise ship looking at my feet and staring at the water. Pondering life and all the wonderful blessings it brings. Bliss!
The weather was wonderful for most of the trip and we also enjoyed the stops that the cruise ship made at different ports. We took a few day trips and had a blast exploring the beauty the coast has to offer.
We took a trip to the Great Barrier Reef and spent a day snorkeling and swimming out in the middle of the ocean amongst the gorgeous, brilliant colours and coral. I was speechless with the beauty of the Great Barrier Reef. We also stopped off at as many scenic spots as we could to take it all in.
We took a trip down river looking for Crocodiles. I was more interested in the scenery and the clouds.
We stopped at the Daintree Rainforest and Mossmon Gorge. It has just rained before we visited so the rainforest had such a lovely fresh feel to it and the gorge was flowing wonderfully with water. Many visitors were swimming and having a great time in the water, it was way too cold for me!
I spent a great deal of time on the top deck taking pictures of clouds in all sorts of weather. They take on a new appreciation when you are up so high in the sky on a large cruise ship and you can see them from a different perspective. Adored them.
We ate in style with amazing views, dressed up and went out each night to different shows and loved the theme dress up nights on board. Here we are dressed up to go to the Hawaiian night. So much fun! I was really shocked just how many activities are available to participate in on cruise ships, Matt and I were constantly trying to work out how we could attend all the activities and fit in an afternoon sleep! We did not want to miss out on them as they were just too good!
We really had awesome time on the P & O Cruise ship Pacific Dawn and are looking forward to hopefully taking another trip in the future. If you ever get the chance to take a trip I highly recommend it. Everything is taken care of for you, you make new friends, it is relaxing, it is also fun and it is like living a dream life.

Monday, January 16, 2012

Instagram Photo Challenge

I love Instagram and just had to participate in this challenge.
Designed by Positively Present and introduced to me by Tina Gray.
Here are my images below:
The explanation if you are interested:

1. Lindt Chocolate Balls - my favourite chocolate
2. Liahona excited we have our tree up
3. Wrapping presents for my cherubs made me really happy
4. Colourful leaves from our garden
5. Morning sky was very bleak for a couple of days here
6. Some of my books
7. I totally adore this art work of me by Sam and Eli
8. I love my blue bedroom
9. My source of strength
10. I adore my Frangapini in my backyard
11. A painting done for my by my grandmother
12. My cherubs holding Lindt chocolate bears
13. Harmony loving the pool
14. Love this necklace from Sam
15. My blog growth - thanks so much everyone!
16. My chickens
17. A treasured memory - my wedding day
18. New shoes - Big W
19. My handsome best friend - hubby!
20. Christmas countdown Santa
21. Where you sleep - in my blue bed
22. My hot pink jacket I picked up at Sportsgirl many years ago
23. I store my shoes on book shelves
24. Grateful to be a mum - with Chelsea rockin a perm
25. A fish by Liahona
26. Liberty on her scooter
27. The never ending laundy work in my home
28. Disco light for new years eve
29. Someone very excited nearly to be taller than me!
30. Me.

You can follow me on Instagram as sevencherubs and I am now having fun with this challenge.

Have you ever participated in a photo challenge before?

Thursday, January 12, 2012

some days I look in the mirror and fail to see any good


Some days I wake up and look in the mirror and fail to see any good.

As soon as I sit up in bed to greet the morning, the mind games begin, immediately crushing my desire to have a good day.

I shake my head, tell myself today is going to be a good day, it is a fresh start and get out of bed.

I shower, get myself ready and as I catch a glimpse of myself in the mirror, I wince.

I lean closer to the mirror, look deep into my own eyes and fail to see the good.

I know I am loved, I know I am of worth but I fail to feel it.

I hang my head and try to stop the tears.

In my mind I start to remember all of the mistakes I have made.

My mind is in a fog, it can only see the bitter and not the sweet.

I get myself dressed and I wear an outfit that helps me to feel happy.

I add a piece of jewellery to make me smile.

Necklaces are my favourite.

When I look down, they are the first thing I see.

I go out to help my cherubs with breakfast, I look at them and my heart melts.

I tell them they are wonderful, they are gorgeous, they are brilliant and can do whatever they desire.

My HEAD tells me to not even try, I am a failure and I am ugly.

My HEART tells me to give it a try, I am good and I am beautiful.

Such is life with depression. It is real.

It is a battle with the heart and the mind.

It is a cycle that continues to rotate, day after day.

Always the same thoughts, always the same feelings.

Bitter with no sweet.

Just when you feel like you are taking two steps forward you end up taking three steps back.

Now I know some of you might look at my picture above and think, 'How can you not see any good?'.

Depression can affect anyone regardless of their situation in life and regardless of what they look like.

The fog clouds your mind, it affects your thinking, it affects your outlook on life and especially your outlook on yourself.

It affects your mothering and it affects your relationships.

Seeking help and support is one of the key factors to progress and healing.

If you are feeling depressed and failing to see any good in yourself, I recommend seeking professional help and at least spending some time over at beyondblue to acquaint yourself with the signs and symptoms of depression.

Click on the depression tab on the left of the website and get started on the road to helping yourself.

This year on my blog I am going to write about depression, mixed with my happiness posts.

I want to share with you some of the experiences I have had and some of the ways I have helped myself to feel better.

I am not a professional, I am a stay at home mum with a bunch of cherubs who I adore like crazy.

I am generally very happy with my life.

I adore my husband and children and the wonderful opportunities that come my way.

I still have days where I battle depression. I still fight it.

I fight it hard. I will not give up.

I am determined to win it for good.

I have hope.

I believe it is possible to overcome and that is why I am a seeker of happiness.

{P.S: I wrote this post to share and to connect. I wrote this post to hopefully help others who may be feeling this way. To let them know they are not alone. I did not write this post to get praise.}

Monday, January 9, 2012

Maybelline New York Review and Giveaway

Maybelline New York Review
Maybe she's born with it or maybe she's given it!

Just before Christmas I received a surprise package in the mail.
Eeeek! A box full of Maybelline New York makeup goodness.


To say I freaked out is a bit of an understatement. To say that my daughters freaked out...well, I so wish I had taken a picture of the way their mouths hit the floor when I showed them what was in the box.

Such a shame that they are all too young to wear make up now isn't it? Haha!

Anyway, I was very excited to spend some time experimenting over the holiday break with some of the lovely products and colours contained in this collection. Maybelline New York know how to make a girl feel special that is for sure!

With so many products in the box I have decided to only share my favourite products. The products I just adored and loved. So let me break it down for you and share with you what I thought:

Mascara 


If you love big volume lashes you are going to enjoy the new Volum' Express One by One Mascara. The lash catcher is elliptically shaped and mimics the contour of the eye. It is also designed to smooth your lashes by detangling them, therefore providing better lash separation and a nicer overall lash look. I personally love thick lashes and loved the fullness this mascara gave to my eyelashes. It was easy to apply, did not sting my eyes and did give me more volume.

I was also sent the Great Lash Lots of Lashes Mascara to try which is a product designed to give you lots of volume, no clumps and no mess. The end of the mascara brush is very different to what I have tried before as it is a lot smaller and tapers in at the end to make it easier to apply mascara to smaller, finer eyelashes. Also known as The Great Little Graber this product is a great addition to your makeup collection. I have blonde eyelashes so I love to wear mascara and I loved all of the mascara range Maybelline New York has available. RRP $19.25.

Concealer


Seriously, who does not love concealer? I find myself using more and more of it every day! Specifically targeting the fragile eye area, the new Maybelline New York Instant Age Rewind Eye Eraser Concealer helps to conceal puffiness, dark circles and fine lines. I found it a very different process to apply this product as the end is not a roll on, but a small sponge or puff ball that fills with concealer as you twist the top of the product. You can either apply directly to your face in dabs or spots or apply directly to your finger to smooth onto your skin. I like the shape of the product, easy to handle and it comes in a good variety of colour choices for a concealer. I had no problems using this product and loved being able to have a few more concealers in my collection. RRP $18.95

Lipstick

I love my lipstick. I love the colour it adds to your face and I just love how it finishes off your makeup. I was totally blown away by how much lipstick was included in this box. I was in lipstick heaven!

I am adoring the Maybelline New York Colour Sensational Lip Colour range of products. I love the pink case and I love the variety of colours available. This lipstick range has a shine and gloss feel and look to it and is so easy to apply. It feels light on your lips and contains a honey infused moisturising formula to nourish lips whilst also adding colour. I found it to be a great handy lipstick to have for the price available. RRP $16.95. My favourite colours were: Juicy Pink, Sugar Plum and Mauve Diamonds. I love, love, love the added sparkle in the Mauve Diamonds lipstick - so my style!


As nude lipstick can be worn at anytime and anywhere, Maybelline New York has updated it's shade range with 5 new nude shades available for you to enjoy. Perfect for wearing if you are popping out to the shops or even to the beach and they have a great range of 15 nude shades to choose from. I was sent 5 of the new shades to try out and I love the colours available. RRP $16.95. See colours below:


Nailpolish

The Maybelline New York Colorama Mini Nail Colour Bitter Sweets Collection has two new shades available, Fruit Juice and Tart. I am a big nail polish fan and was delighted to have a few new colours to add to my collection. These are good quality nail polishes and very bright and vibrant for summer. The offset any outfit nicely. LOVE them! RRP $5.95. Here is a snap of me wearing the Fruit Juice below:


Gel Eyeliner

I love a little eyeliner on my eyes when I am applying my makeup. Depending on my mood is how much and how thick I apply it. Bad mood - thick eyeliner, good mood - thin eyeliner. I am a little funny like that! I was thrilled to try out the Maybelline New York Eye Studio Lasting Drama Gel Eyeliner. Originally launched as limited edition shades, the Charcoal and Eggplant shades are now permanent shades along with the existing black and brown available. You can use this gel eyeliner to create a delicate fine line or a fierce thicker look. To apply the product you dip the brush into the gel formula, wipe off the excess on the rim of the jar and then glide the brush in small strokes across the lash line. Continue to do so until you get the thickness you desire. I loved this product, very easy to apply and it gives you a great look. It is smudge proof and the brush is very small and easy to handle. A new favourite in my makeup collection. RRP $16.95.

Giveaway

Now I seriously could not receive all of these products with giving some away. Well, I could...but I won't. I just have to share some of this Maybelline New York goodness. Here is what I have available to giveaway and believe me it was so hard to part with it:


1 x Nailpolish * Tart
1 x Volum' Express Mascara * Blackest Black
1 x Concealer * Medium Moyen
2 x Super stay lip liner * Cappuccino and Red
3 x Lipstick * Rosy Dream, Mango Diamonds and Cherry Candy
2 x Nude Lipstick * Warm Latte and Mochachino

Total Prize pack worth $170.00

Good luck and thanks so much Maybelline New York!