The time has arrived to start sharing my story.
Right now, I feel like I am walking on a tightrope. One part of me is excitedly balancing my way across the tightrope hoping to make it to the other side and another part of me feels sick to the stomach of slipping and crashing and falling. Of falling hard and taking a long time to recover. It is not that I am worried about what people will think, it is more a worry that by putting myself out there I will in a way isolate myself. I will become more known for my tragedy than for my recovery. People will look at me differently and treat me differently. They will look at me with sadness and pity. I don't want any of that.
I simply want to help people. To encourage people to find peace and healing. I want to be a voice for those who can't speak about what they have been through, who can't face the emotions associated with sexual abuse and who need to know they are not alone.
For this reason, I have written my book more on my recovery and healing than more on the tragic events that happened. I do need to share some experiences to help people understand why I made certain decisions in my life and it is always helpful to have some background knowledge. However, I find a positive, healing perspective is far more inspiring and I hope you do too!
One of the hardest decisions has been what to put on the cover of the book. I have spent endless hours considering many varieties of symbols to represent what I have been through and have not found a fit. So for now this is what I have come up with. Simply myself. This story is my story of how I took myself from a young abused girl to a happier and healthier grown woman and mother.
To start with you need to read the PROLOGUE to my story.
This is probably the hardest part of my book to read.
Coming next is Chapter 1.
I still can't believe I am doing this.
Breathing deeply, facing my fear and moving forward!!